Happiness is real only when shared

I have really come to realize that I am not as independent as I thought I was. I need people more than I would like to admit. Happiness is oh so only real when shared! I am alone right now... so alone. I would however, differentiate between alone and lonely.

Lonely is when you don't feel supported, feel like you don't have anyone, feel like no one is there for you, and that you are just going through life without anyone. It's more of a state of being... sense as if it is permanent.

Alone, however, is a situation. It's when you literally don't have people around you. It's when you can't be social, because society is hidden in the darkness of the night. Alone, is when you know you are loved, but the one(s) who love you are not physically there, or you can't see them (in case of God).

I am more alone than lonely. Yes, sometimes I do feel lonely. But that is a lie. I am so not lonely. God is with me. and Jesus, breaking through the barriers of time and all, is always present by me.

God made us in His own image. I presume He wasn't so surprised when Adam desired another companion. We all want someone, some PERSON, someone who wants us, NEEDS us, and is made for us!

I am made for God, but someone else is made for me. He is made for me, but mostly he is made for God.

We are social beings. Oh how I know today that, "happiness is only real when shared."

First time ever writing a blog really. and for no one. other than me. it is for self discovery. not self delivery.

This is me. the person who is stuck in the body of the person labeled as Kiana. who am i. that is my very own question. would i be a different being, person if my parents named me something else.?.

I always thought i would find myself when i am left alone. away from society. but now i know. i know i am so dependent on society. i needed my name. i need to be defined. who will i allow to define me? when i die. who has died?

I've come to understand this quote: "happiness is when shared." who will i share my happiness with. who will be by my side at all times. who. who. ?